I'm stressed out of my mind. I can't seem to keep my emotions in check. I'm crying all the time. I hate it. School, schedule, social life, self-esteem, parents, personal problems, transition (OR LACK THEREOF), all of it. Nothing seems to be going right. I just feel like I'm trying so hard and that it's still just not good enough. I can't deal with it. I know my standards for myself are too high, but I can't help it. I know I can do everything, I know I'm capable of it, but everything is working against me. I don't have enough time. I don't know what to do. I'm trying. I tell myself that this'll all just pass with time, that I need to square my shoulders and act like the man I feel that I am and just need to keep trucking on. I really am trying.
I just kind of want right now to be over. Right now.